It seems the closer we get, the more I feel that our lives are on hold.
With referrals finally getting through November 2005, there are only two and a half months worth of files in China until they get to ours. Back when we started this process that would have seemed like a lifetime, but with the amount of time we have already waited that seems like no time at all.
The only problem is this doesn't mean we'll have our referral in two and half months. It could actually be anywhere from 3 months to 10 months or beyond, depending on how fast or slow the CCAA decides to go.
Not knowing how much longer we have to wait to finally be parents is really getting to me lately. I feel like I can't plan anything beyond a couple of months from now, because I know that once we get really close (like going to be in the next batch) I won't be able to focus on anything but the adoption.
If we only knew WHEN, life would be SO much easier...at home and at work! What a difference that would make to my stress level.